why we fall for the leading man

i had forgotten what it feels like to be Consumed by emotions, feelings which were thought to be gone, & then feelings that i can not dream of ever letting go of.  the desire for love, reminiscent regrets of selfish behavior.... coming home messes with my head. i forget that songs can make you swoon, & passion in a voice can make you melt. i talked with my uncle tonight about why we fall so hard for the leading man... well you see, there is an emotional connection, & it plays with us. and because we open ourselves up to that, it is difficult for us to sometimes snap back to reality. we desire the character or a mixture of the real & the staged, or sometimes we don't know exactly what we want..but just knowing that it's a hot commodity & you're the one who's got it, well... you're on the top of the world...are you not?
sawyer read me part of his devotion tonight, and guess what it was about...? oh forgetting the past & living in the preset. This is what i try to live by! i have been trying for so long! why is it so difficult for me to stay focused?!?! seriously.
"Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. ²³ For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes." -luke 12:22-23
so, i mean i'm fine with us running around naked, if it would help keep me focused...which it probably wouldn't because i'm way too observant.

i'm getting overwhelmed, i'd rather just share photos from my weekend....we will come back to all this
another time.
the 'phantom of the opera' put on by east grand rapids high school was wonderful! i am so proud of everyone! seeing my brother & sister perform made me so proud, they are so talented i can not wait to see how they grow.

these are little chocolate cookie treats for shea...she just did a group project on shrooms for health class. i thought it was appropriate.

and here are some little fish...that she can't freeze this time...

dear shea, thank you for being level headed & as down to earth as a freshman girl can be. i'm glad your head isn't up in the clouds. i love you! you're so great.... xoxo -your sister

photos taken by my mom!